The sharp knife of a short life

So much for TGIF. I got some pretty tragic news this morning. The story behind it makes it all the more tragic so I guess I will start from the begining. Last year, in February, a girl I grew up with lost her younger sister in a canoe accident. The younger sister was with two of her guy friends when the canoe tipped. The two boys made it to shore safely but she got pulled under the ice and drowned. My friend was very close with her sister and I guess the sadness that took over her.. eventually got the best of her. She was found dead in her bed this morning. Rumor has it that she overdosed but no one seems to know for sure if it was on purpose or completely accidental. I get angry about the situation when I think of the poor mother having to bury both of her children within a year. But I can't get angry specifically at my friend because I am fortunate enough to still have my sister and brother in my life. I'm not entirely sure what I would do or how I would react if I ever lost either one of them. I guess the lesson here is that life is short, so be thankful for the people in your life and tell them you love them as often as you can.

The results are in

I met with my doctor today to discuss my colposcopy results. Everything is completely normal. What he couldn't explain to me is why I had abnormal results to begin with and now everything is normal. I just can't wrap my head around it and the fact that there is no rhyme or reason, as to how or why things happened the way they did, doesn't help all that much. However, the results were normal so I suppose I should just shut up and count my blessings for that. I still have to go back in August for a follow up colposcopy. When I asked him why he responded with, "Well we want to make sure that nothing progresses." Now I am completely lost because he said everything is normal, so what exactly is there that could progress?? And I finally (two and a half years later) got a referral from him to see a specialist in Boston for a laparoscopy to rule out endometriosis!! As soon as I am done with all of this man's colposcopy shenanigans, I am done with him as well and I will be finding myself a new OB-GYN doctor. That is what I wanted to do last year, but then my Pepere passed away and everything went downhill from there and I put myself on the back burner so that I could be there for everyone else. I have now realized that in order to take care of everyone else, I need to take care of myself first.

What's up doc?

I had my colposcopy today. I never want to go through that ever again for as long as I live! I suppose there are worse medical procedures out there that I could've had to go through, but that doesn't make a colposcopy any more pleasant to have to go through. It will take a couple of weeks to get my results back. Once again, the waiting game. Sigh.

Registered

Today I registered for nursing classes for the fall. Fundamental Nursing Skills and Concepts for Nursing Practice. Now all I need is $300 worth of nursing school uniforms and $1000 worth of nursing books! Talk about breaking the bank to get to where you want to be in life! But I guess I have to spend money to make money. Just have to make the money so I can spend the money... to make money. Oy!

Unlucky number 3

Whoever said that bad news comes in 3's is absolutely right! I was on skype with my sister tonight while she was talking to our mom on yahoo messenger. My sister (who is on the other side of the country) got the news from my mom before I did!! My godparents, who live in Canada, went for their physical check-ups. Both of them were diagnosed with cancer. My uncle has prostate cancer and my aunt has cervical cancer! And apparently, for the last week, my grandmother has been taking medication for Alzheimer's!! I'd like to know why parents couldn't fill me in on all of this sooner!?? Maybe because they figured I have enough on my plate with my own health scare going on right now?? Either way, it's my family too. I have a right to know. I'm a grown woman. I can handle bad news considering that's what my life has revolved around for the last year.